My Dear, I need to hold back

I've only known Jerry a month and one week. The first week, I was with him every night because of a Halloween event that we were volunteering for (a haunted-house-type project). I asked him out the very last night - Halloween night: The last night I thought I would see him. He has went through a lot, but out of respect I won't write about it.

I made many enemies a few days after that night, when I had called him on the phone. He had a fair number of girls falling for him - they all went to his school. When they found out about us together, I heard it had been shock - 'Ari, a girl who goes to another school?!' Chaos. I ignored it though and let people say what they wanted to me; after all, maybe they didn't mean every hateful thing that came out of their mouths. Did they mean to be resentful and let me know it? Hell yes.

I'm transferring to another school. Jerry is there, but so is everyone else that dislikes me. I don't want to leave my current school; everyone there loves me and I love everyone else there! My family just can't afford to drive me back and forth when I need a ride. I will be friendly, though. They can say what they want when I get there. Actually, I expect them to say bad things to me - but what am I supposed to do? It would only hurt me to get angry or defensive about everything.

I love Jerry... and I trust him. I've only known him a little over a month, and I love him. I trust him to trust me; I trust in his assurance that he is just as determined as I am for us to be there for each other. He listens to me and he responds - I trust him to tell me how he is feeling when it is important to him. He's tried to comfort me when I'm upset and if he ever needed it, I would do the same. Will we always be able to live up to all this for each other? Probably not. Could we get through that? Yes. Is it too early to tell that we have what it takes to be there for each other yet still stay content? I don't know - I think everything is too early. Too early to be born, to speak, to think, to breathe, to die... Why wouldn't it be too early to love?

I know Jerry isn't perfect. No one is, and I know we will have rocky times. I don't expect much from him - Just that this is an experience worth to live for and I care so very much about him. After all, a blizzard can last a day but would you tell someone that it never happened?
I know love when I feel it - it is so much more different than the obsessive turbulence of Infatuation.