Know those times?

Do you know those times when you aren't in the right state of mind and suddenly you're like..... F*CK ME!... Because you end up doing something that people, nor yourself, would like later?

Yeah... Well, this is one of those times.

Okay, so I have to shut up about that right now for certain reasons, but if anyone wants to know? Too bad, you'll never find out.

Sarah's party was okay. I was really quiet (like I always am around people I can't be 'loose' with or... whatever...). It was pretty fun. When I came home is when I felt crappy... Sorry I'm being so vague. I have to for reasons, though. Please - understand. I guess I have to upbump my meditation minutes... Actually... I kind of feel stupid, cutting off my self-observation (I did this so I could feel less tired and bogged down - I'd rather feel that now, though, than what I just felt...)

Can't let anyone see... wait... then... everything will be okay and I will start self-observing again... God, I feel so freaking stupid... --_--