Annie

I saw Annie, the school play today. They actually performed it really well, and Rainey did a good job as leading role. I didn't know she could sing until today. Jerry and David were the two butlers. Hm o_o. *shrug* And Vicki was one of the NYC girls. I told Rainey she did a good job aterwards, while she was still standing on stage receiving flowers. While I was outside waiting for my mom to pick me up, she came up to me asking if I was okay. I said, "Yeah. I'm fine." She asked if I was sure, and I said yes. She was forced away by her mom, who was saying everyone was getting cold.

I appreciate Rainey's concern, but I don't think I could trust her to stay by my side as a friend - anotherwards, she's very flittish. Not only that, but she seems concerned after Jerry and I break up. I dunno. I guess I'd understand why she'd do that, and after all... it was disrespectful of me to go out with someone I knew my friends liked. Well, I dunno. I just have trouble opening up to her now.

I like this guy named Kirk in my Biology class. It's only a tiny, small, wittle crush though, so don't go freaking out on me! He's German (and seems to take pride in it), he's so nice and seems like such a gentleman, and he's very attractive. He just got out of a three year relationship so... um.. talk about 'rebound,' huh? Naw, you all should know by now that I wouldn't go out with a guy unless I got to know him. Well, it's the same in this situation.

And... it's only a little crush...

A little one.

Just... it's small.

*coughs*

A lot has happened... well... kind of.

Jerry and I broke up. It was mutual but he told me afterward that he was thinking about breaking up with me for 2-3 weeks. I can't be angry at him - there's nothing to be angry at him about. He kept my trust. He was the only one who ever made me feel so beautiful. What gift is there other than that? I would appreciate his friendship, but it is hard to keep it up when we see each other so little.

I went to the E.R two days ago in fear of a heart attack. There was nothing wrong with my heart, but I was diagnosed with Costochondritis. I hope it doesn't end up being chronic.

I've made friends with Cassandra and Britney. Well, from what I can see atleast. I talked to Cassandra on the phone last night, and Britney, talked to her in Choir. I can't say me and Britney will have a close friendship because the truth is I don't know. It depends on how much she relates with me. I relate with her because she seems pretty fun to be around and if I'm going to be friends with someone, they have to either be a supporter or need supporting. She can also make a big deal out of something and then a minute later make it out like it was nothing. She's a druggie, though so... I have to be cautious. I can't get hooked on that shit.

Cassandra's really supportive. I think we have a lot in common in our way of viewing life. She's more 'out-there' in the dating realm. I guess that's our only difference is that I take dating a little more seriously and date longer. I've found that she gets depressed a lot, which I didn't know about before.

Tomorrow I have to go to a friend's birthday party. See ya later!